@Ladybug_Kawaii3 Yeah, I'm sad that I really wanna be good enough for this one lady but I don't think I'll reach that point anytime soon. I don't know her standards but where I am at now isn't where I wanna be when I try to be hers. I'm totally not obsessed with her.
With the month over all I can recall is that I need money and need to do better as a person, I'll work on it and maybe one day the lady will notice and maybe she'll think I'm worth talking to.
@jaxyish You gotta listen to me my confused calculated composed insane in the membrane compatriot. You, in order to stop looking like a bot must (drum roll please) just tell people things as a coverup and every once in a while remind people what you offer why they should choose you.
@laurcnn What if you just started talking about random things as a way to cope instead of thinking about why you should be motivated to do it in the first place. Thinking out loud is probably good for you so I'm sure nobody would mind hearing you just talk, especially if they're lurking.