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It feels like there is a very key part of me that is wrong. That I am inherently wrong. It's incredibly hard for me to describe. It feels so limiting. I am a limited thing. Something missing? Something that needs to change? Something that needs to be cut out? I need to be cut out

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I can’t fucking give up you god damn coward don’t give up

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I have to stay alive for my spouse I can’t leave them in the lurch like this I can’t die yet

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I’ve got a lawyer and hopefully he can get me and my spouse out of this mess I have to keep a brave face on for my spouse I can’t fucking let it slip but holy shit I am being eaten alive

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Yeah I’m having a moment

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No fucking vague shit I have absolutely ruined everything and I need to die.

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I’m trying so hard right now to keep my composure in front of my spouse and in front of my superiors but I’m this xlose to ending it to killing nyself Oh my god

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It’s so fucking done. It’s done. I’ve ruined a life

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It’s all going oi t of control and it’s all crumbling around me I have doomed the one I love please forgive me

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I will give my life

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I’m just so scared please don’t take them away from me

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This is not a fucking “oh yeah i have suicidal ideation and im sad right now” post i just recieved the worst news possible and i cannot breathe and i

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I’m devastated. I don’t have the words. I’m absolutely distraught. There are no words that can describe my fear and sadness at this tragedy so fucking scared

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I just had the worst case scenario hit and I can’t even go home. I’ve never been closer to killing my self than now. They’re going to take my spouse away. I’ve got nothing

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@502saaud_502 Yeah they explained that they just aren’t used to me doing stuff for myself

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Whenever I do things for myself my spouse seems so shocked I guess I never really treat myself. Never felt like I was one to do so

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@bigfatnuts69 I worked at a monastery in high school but those were Buddhists

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@FranceBoner I’m gruesome and I do gruesome works. I have no respect for myself the jobs I’ve done

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Need to go bald. Need to shave bald. Need to shave bald

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I dunno what I got but it CANT be good

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I may be immune to anthrax now but my shoulder hurts so fucking bad

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@GemyGub If you are everything that means you are everything good too please find this and hold it