Pessimism_Personified ||CEO of Mood Swings||

Alt of @Optimism_Timi

OC yaps, vent posts, Big Sad™ hours, nuclear hot takes

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In a way I'm thankful for it. It's really hard to be hopeful when one gives you so many reasons not to.

So thanks, ex-friends. You made my life easier ☺️

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Triggering as it may be to some people, I'm enjoying life right now.

I like writing. I like posting about Radiostatic. I like myself, and my friends. I like my classes and I'm so excited to start writing my thesis.

All the drama and insane reactions helped a lot with moving on.

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@StarFireLiz Here it is!

https://t.co/SVlgcaGrKA

Fair warning, the first chapters are janky, but it gets better 😭😭😭

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@yoassia

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Not gonnna be angsty about ghosts of the past on this acc anymore! I've let them haunt me for too long.

Gonna be angsty about doing my Master's instead 🫡🔫

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@StarFireLiz Glad to hear people find it cool! 😊

It's not particularly popular, but it's the reason I am still in this fandom, so I'm a biiiit attached to it 🥹🥹🥹

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@StarFireLiz Unfinished btw 😭🔫

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@KawaiixEmolga @Optimism_Timi —the optimal place where episode 7 should have ended. Progress, but not an instant solution.

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@KawaiixEmolga @Optimism_Timi OP here from his priv because Twitter is not letting me see the comment on my main, lmao

I think Via just needed more focus in general, and at least one or two more interactions with Stolas BEFOFE this duet. "It's been nice, maybe we'll talk again soon" feels to me like—

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@ChauncyTG @Optimism_Timi Twitter is doing a Twitter so I have to reply from this acc pff

I suppose that does help a fair bit, but having it happen fully off-screen (Octavia's reaction to it, I mean) just feels like doing Via dirty. She's never given enough focus with her side of the story, imo

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Your bright soul was a wonder to behold. I'm glad to have glimpsed it. Thank you for not hating me, up until the end.

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I'd have liked to watch you react to your official debut, V. Your song's beautiful too. I miss you, even if it's not mutual. I liked being friends with you. I wish I'd gotten the chance to say a proper goodbye, with more than an unopened voice message.

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Getting annoyed at myself for still being upset over some stuff is so stupid. It's normal and it's human, why am I not giving myself some grace?

And yet, here we are.

But I'll be fine. I'm always fine, in the end. I have really great friends, too.

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Helluva S3 makes life so hard for me right now. I was supposed to watch it with someone I loved, and he's no longer part of my life. I miss him, even though I know I shouldn't. I don't want to miss him. I don't want to remember. I don't want to be sad over this anymore.

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You're out there somewhere, and maybe you've decided to hate me, but... I can't bring myself to hate you. I want to, sometimes, but I can't.

I really hope you've found something to smile about, even if it's not me.

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I think I will never stop missing certain people. And... that's okay. It's okay to miss them. It's okay to mourn the lack of their presence. As long as you can function. Does it hurt a bit still? Yes. But... we should all still be able to smile, and live with our choices.

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What did I do to deserve thoughts like "I wonder if he'll ever finish Dark Souls even without me to stream to?" spawning at midnight, after all this time? I just want to forget.

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Maybe we really ARE programmed to smile through it all, and try to focus on something worth being happy for.

In a way, it's beautiful. Simple, but beautiful, the way sadness shifts your perspective towards appreciation and hope.

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People often claim that you have to suffer to write suffering, but no one ever brings up how much suffering helps you write hope. When you're sufficiently sad, sometimes your heart really does reach out towards the sun on its own, finding joy in the tiniest things.

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