As a survivor of abuse I cannot express how genuinely true this is.
When you're abused so much you end up seeing abuse as love and unconditional love feels like a fist pulled back that's going to hit you when you least suspect it.
It's taken me decades to work through.
God this hurts even more when you realise that this is probably how her mom treated her. Ragatha I’m so sorry, you deserved to have crashed out harder at Jax.
It's actually fantastic representation of a trans woman dealing with internalized transphobia and misogyny that leads her to committing. Not all representation is sunshine and rainbows. Jax is painfully good rep it's just not pretty rep, which is what you want.
Today i realized that Jax had a LOT of AUDACITY to tell Ragatha to never bring up Ribbit again, ESPECIALLY cause it’s likely her and Ribbit were friends BEFORE Jax came to the circus #tadc#tadcep9
TADC Theory/HC:
Ribbit suggested the Stargazing adventure we see in Episode 5. Why?
It was the first time Ribbit saw Jax laugh since arriving.
Perhaps after the constant avoidance, it was probably her trying to reconnect with that happy moment again and be friends again.
Que nos quiso decir Goose?
Que todo tiene matices buenos y malos, al final del día somos humanos y nos equivocamos, pero especialmente, si no aprendemos y no buscamos/aceptamos ayuda, terminaremos destruyendo a quienes nos aman, a quienes quieren darnos la mano y también a nosotros mismos.
Jax no era un imbecil solo porque si, el tipo nunca pudo aceptar la ayuda de los demas porque aprendio que la vulnerabilidad es castigada; creía que todos se burlarían de él y lo humillarían (lo que se ve cuando Caine los tortura), se volvio violento porque era su forma de protegerse ante la incapacidad de aceptar quien era; tuvo muchas oportunidades de recibir apoyo de Ribbit, Kaufmo y Ragatha pero prefirio alejarlos por completo por el panico que sentia por dentro.
Debido a eso, termino abstrayendose en soledad y lamentandose por todos los errores que cometio, porque ahora ya es demasiado tarde para remediarlo