After weeks of dealing with emotions and getting through a really hard time, Josh and I have decided that we should just remain friends. It's a decision that took a lot out of both of us.
Work has been a good distraction, but not a cure all. I'm very grateful that he and I +
*Solo*
Over the past few days Josh and I have been spending some time together, discussing the miscarriage, infertility, crying, laughing and just communicating. It's been both a happy and sad time for me. Every bit of me wants to be with him, I just don't know that I can. +
+ I often wonder what our child would look like. Who he or she would look like, eye color, hair color... Anything really. I often lay awake at night picturing him or her.
I've put some thought into trying again but I know he wants kids. I can't give that to him, it just seems +