( Nodding slowly as Armin speaks. Each word is considered with deep thought. )
I guess that makes sense. I mean, I’ve always known that I liked women. I’m sure you know that.
( Suddenly cringing at his childhood crush on Armin’s best friend….. )
But.. for guys? I never
( He still grabs a small water inside a canteen. Placing it down just in case. )
Oh please. Never apologize Jean. We’ve been friends for…a very long time.
( a soft smile before sitting and oh. He blushes a bit embarrassed. picking at a sleeve cuff. )
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really considered it an option until I got older. I would stare, but always chalked it up to envy. Marco and Reiner being more muscular than me, able to grow facial hair.
You and Eren I envied for being so close.
I. Wanted something like that.
( He looks at Armin as if
relax. Like any moment an airship will fly overhead, or a boat will dock. Now that I’ve had time to myself, I’m only realizing what a Coward I am.
How the fuck does someone move on from that?
( Arms wrap around her torso. )
( The hug is warm and he allows his head to fall onto Sasha’s shoulder. Just as soon as they started, the tears stopped with a sniffle. Now he feels ridiculous for crying at something so… )
I know. I’m grateful I have all of you, that we all survived. But I feel like I can’t
( she listens intently, wanting to provide any comfort to her best friend that she can. as soon as his tears start, her arms wrap around him, enclosing him in a warm hug. )
oh, jean …
( He fails to meet their gaze, staring off to the side instead. )
I don’t know.
I talked to Sasha about it a little. It’s.. hard. I’ve always known, but saying it aloud is so much more to handle.
( Jean laughs dryly. )
Pathetic, isn’t it?
I know I have time, but . .
I’m afraid that it’ll be stripped away at any moment. We were kids forced to be men— and I hadn’t had the chance to. Realize that.. until now.
( His gaze falls to the dirt beneath their boots. Jean chews on his bottom lip. )
it is … hard. i mean, i always had dreams and ideas about what we’d do once we reclaimed the land the titans took from us and then our world became so much bigger all of a sudden.
it makes sense you’re feeling a lot, jean, and there’s no rush to figure any of it out, okay?
( Jean sits and waits for Armin to join him before continuing. )
You don’t need to apologize for anything. I’m* sorry for making this a big deal. You don’t need to get me anything.
.. So, how did you,,, y’know. Figure it out?
I mean. It doesn’t have to be labeled-
Sorry i feel like i have to compile things 💧
( Though he gently gestures. )
Of course. I can get water too.
( to be fair Armin hadn’t though about it since his cadet core days. They’ve been through too much 💧)