I've been at a standstill making music because I think I'm worried I won't ever live up to my last album. I'm so proud of that one. Even though like 8 people listened to it lmao 😭
Had my last chemo yesterday. I'm one scan away from being cancer free. I'd be a lot more hype if my HOA didn't feel the need to be dicks and hit me with a lawn violation because "they don't like how my grass is cut". Fucking bitches
As if cancer wasn't terrifying enough to deal with, moving and having to find a new job after it's over is even fucking scarier. I have no skills, no real marketable talents, and now I also will have lingering health issues. Fuck me honestly.
@ritualEXE You're literally the best. I'll be back up there in October and currently all prospects I've had haven't been options with all the tomfuckery my body decided to do this year.
Two of my best friends from the army days found the shirts I wear to the chemo clinic every week, and now wear them on Thursdays. They sent me pictures today and I cried like a baby.
I only have 3 treatments left, but I actually want to quit. This time around has been absolutely brutal and I genuinely don't want to do this anymore. Honestly, cancer fucking sucks.
For the record, I barely know what food I like because the chemo has changed my taste an insane amount. I hate practically everything I liked before. But still.
Why is the only advice for career and life opportunities I receive is "Go BaCk To CoLlEgE!" Boss, I'm already 28. I barely know what food I like, and you want me to go even farther into debt with the hopes of "finding something I like"? Fuckin huh