People only extend their grace to me when I am useful, when I am beautiful, when I don’t offend. People loved me when I was a man. As a woman they hate me, they’re confused, they are put off by me. I am so alone, I am so miserable, I am filed with so much hatred. I want to die
Went out yesterday with friends and while I had a good time I got reminded by society again and again that I’m nothing more than a tranny. I can’t even pretend that I live a normal life. I hate that I have to be alive before ffs
that I am stuck in a perpetual loop of purgatory. That I am only given my humanity when people don’t clock me. Chasing beauty is the only thing that has given me happiness. The only thing that has saved me. I wish this could all just end and that I’d wake up with no dysphoria
a girl no older than 10 came into my store. out of nowhere i heard her go "miku, miku, you can call me miku"
so, naturally, i walked over to her, bent down to her level and asked "are you larping, or can you name 15 miku songs?"
when she couldn't, i kicked her out. #GateKEPT
@fatdumbchuf a girl i went on a date with said this and i thought, if i never got this far you wouldnt have come in the first place. In any case what she or anyone else thinks is irrelevant if it will help alleviate your dysphoria then get it
What am I adorning myself for? The woman I will date in the future would never love me the way I am now. I’ll always hold a malice in my heart for the world and it will never go away. Though one day I hope to forget and these feelings will be hidden deep in my heart
The only way to be considered human as trans is to be beautiful. And even then people will take away your personhood as soon as you let it slip that you’re trans. Then you are suddenly considered lesser despite being exceptional. It becomes what defines you and not your being
Wish I just stayed a cis manlet and not have dysphoria at all. At least maybe life wouldn’t be a living nightmare and I’d have experiences people normally do in their 20s
How long do I have to wallow and suffer due to my transness. How much longer before I can live my life normally and forget this ever happened. There’s nothing to be proud or happy about