Guys, this fucking Pacific Rim AU is ending up over 800k words, I'm just gonna say it now, and y'all can be damn sure I'm never writing anything this long ever again.
This sucker's longer than CL, Weeping Hearts, and all my published works combined. I can't do this ever again.
This has been ludicrous. I never thought I'd end up one of those fic writers who churn out stories this long, I thought Weeping Hearts 412k was beyond my limit. But I guess not.
I truly can't do this again. This has been exhausting. 😆 Fun! But exhausting.
@astraskylark ...I don't wanna talk about it. 🥺🥺
(But in all seriousness we used to genuinely be really good, but the past few years idk what happened.)
I've also been getting substantially more hate comments in the past year which has been a pretty big factor into why I haven't been posting as much, because I've been keeping more and more of my stories to myself just to avoid it, but that's neither here nor there.
Every time I've posted anything KPDH, I actually lose more subscribers than I gain. Normally I don't care about that sort of thing, I write my shit for ME, but boy did I notice it after posting last night and waking up this morning.
Let me live, RWBY fans. Let me liiiiiive.
(But honestly in all seriousness never actually feel obligated to stay subscribed to accounts whose interests have moved away from yours. I'm glad y'all enjoyed the stuff I posted that got your attention, and I hope other authors are feeding you. ♥️)
Every time I've posted anything KPDH, I actually lose more subscribers than I gain. Normally I don't care about that sort of thing, I write my shit for ME, but boy did I notice it after posting last night and waking up this morning.
Let me live, RWBY fans. Let me liiiiiive.
Every time I've posted anything KPDH, I actually lose more subscribers than I gain. Normally I don't care about that sort of thing, I write my shit for ME, but boy did I notice it after posting last night and waking up this morning.
Let me live, RWBY fans. Let me liiiiiive.
Did I just randomly write 6k words of chapter one of a Weeping Hearts sequel at 6am after an all-nighter? Yes.
Am I now going to put it down and forget I did it for the next year? Also yes.
I'm such a Good Writer™️ 🤪
My strategy isn’t “write for myself” it’s “have an insane ego.” Some of my fics I love flop and I’m like “y’all are wrong. Its awesome. Im sorry you didnt enjoy it.” I don’t love all my fics but you cant shake my belief that certain ones are good unless you give me good critiques
I'm not gonna lie, the temptation to start posting some of my original writings (of which I have a LOT) on my AO3, just to throw them out there, has been getting seriously strong.
I've got a 90k backstory for one of my current D&D campaign's villains that's sitting there done.
All these years later, and I still can't write fluffy kissing scenes.
I can write two characters fuck to high heaven and break many of god's rules in the process, and watch a movie at the same time.
But fluff is just....so, SO beyond me.
Never stop saying "dozen" and "half dozen". Never stop using the word you read in an old novella. Never stop using your regional jargon. Don't succumb to an internationalized English stripped of its whimsy and romanticism in the name of streamlining global commerce.
Rereading old fics and cringing at them is normal and expected. Encouraging, even. Now, rereading old fics and experiencing a stab of fear (irrational or otherwise) that you will never be able to cook like that again? That's terrifying. Soul-crushing. It's happening to me.