when i start crying because of stress, it turns into crying over my family, crying over my past mistakes, crying over losing my person, crying over the fact that they’ll leave me eventually, crying about my body, and crying about my entire life.
I don’t hear from ppl unless they wanna vent, borrow , be messy or a special day coming up 😂😂 that’s why I don’t answer , don’t care , don’t have , don’t know , & won’t attend
Most ppl don’t realise this, the body grieves routine before it grieves a person. So you aren’t crying over him. You’re crying over the version of yourself that was shaped by his patterns, attuned to his silences, fluent in the unspoken language of his inconsistencies.
if you catch yourself BEGGING someone for…human decency? a response? time together? clarify? respect? some compassion? some kindness? you need to make a step back & realize you’re begging someone for bare minimum. that’s ridiculous beneath you. fuck that shit.
I THOUGHT I WANTED A RELATIONSHIP SO BAD BUT TODAY I REALIZE THAT I DONT! I NEED TO GET MYSELF TOGETHER 1st! Get right with God, get in shape, work on my credit, work on saving, work on my attitude and mindset, change my environment! SO THEN I CAN ATTRACT THE RIGHT VIBES!