My Children are my lifetime commitment. I want my kids to take groceries out of my fridge when they're 27. I want them to stop by for dinner when it's their favorite meal at 32. I want them home for Christmas when they're 44. I want them to know that I'm one call away, forever.
It eventually gets better, without any sort of explanation; one day you just realize that you're no longer upset. You're no longer mad, hurt or bothered by the things that took so much of your energy and thoughts. You will find yourself in a peaceful place and enjoy that feeling.
I don't think people realize how much strength it takes to pull your own self out of a dark place mentally. So if you've done that today or any day, I'm proud of you.