i want you to know that it is okay not to love me. you are not the first person to hesitate. not the first to take a step back after getting close enough to see me clearly
@bluewmist Aggressive hyper independence. They are the 'fixer' in their group and can manage everyone else's crises flawlessly, but they cannot articulate their own needs or ask for a simple favor when they are the ones sinking. They weaponize their competence to avoid being vulnerable.
@bluewmist For me it’s the extreme self awareness, they’re so hyper aware of their own coping mechanisms to a point where they can narrate their own breakdown while it’s happening
i realized that no one, not even my mother or closest friends knows what i’m actually like in the inside of my head, and the only person who actually knows who i am is me