no one talks about how draining it is when your mood is constantly switching between "its okay, i don't care. I'll be okay" and "I don't know how much more I can take"
“You don’t look autistic.”
Thanks I’m currently calculating the right response to every interaction like it’s a mathematical equation while I force myself to make eye contact, move my face in the right away, moderate my tone of voice and suppress every natural urge I have to stim.