want to be less certain of my values and morals to a degree.. since it's holding me back massively meow.
trying to take myself back to 'before'.. since i'm taking things far too serious, or feel the need to have certainty for something non-static.. erm
low motivation but i don't intend to give up on myself meow.
gonna work on managing my time a little and becoming aware how much i waste it.. until i just do it
took a walk at night instead of going to sleep all angry and depressed.. a first after years(!!)
now sitting on a bench in someone's vineyard at 5am, waiting for the sunrise in an hour..
It's 3or 4°C and my ass is slowly freezing to the bench, but I'm smiling. genuinely smiling.