You've been clenching your fists oh so tightly. You've been on survival mode for so long. They call you paranoid, you call yourself prepared. Just this once, would you breathe for me? No one's looking, please be kinder to yourself.
I learned a lot from that trip and I'll always be grateful.
One subtle thing I learned, is how limited and important your time and energy are. Don't spend these on people, places, and events that stray away from your growth and happiness. Simple, but hits hard now. Thank You.