It's my grandmother's funeral tomorrow. A small 20 minute cremation. Motivation's at an all time low. -3-
There's still no real plans for me afterward either. I can't stay in her house much longer, and her accounts will be shut down so money's going to be fun to deal with too.
But don't worry, I'll keep retweeting random rabbits and vtuber stuff. That's all I'm good for after all. I'm a Robin to be seen, not heard. I know my fucking place. So give me a few fucking minutes to find some.
The only ones who ever ring me these days are filthy sister-fuckers from across the planet who keep calling because they think my grandmother's still alive and want to scam her.
I'm fucking at my limit of trying to not go nuclear on everyone in this shitheap of a planet.
Not to mention all the mouthbreathing retards online and off who abandoned me over the years for one reason or another. Trying to do the right thing just gets you fucking used and tossed aside, every single time. I struggle to keep my hatred of everyone down, but it's difficult.
I try to not be selfish, but the fact that my reward for living with my grandmother, keeping her safe and keeping her company for 26 years even through dementia and the china virus, without a thank you/good job from her children, is homelessness with barely any money to my name?
Being stuck here with no access to my money and no idea what's going to happen each day that passes, while they're preparing to fuck off on holiday has left me plenty of time to get more and more bitter thinking about things. :x
To be honest, with the way things are I'm thinking I might abandon my family name wholesale. It's from my father's side, and honestly the only one of them who really ever treated me like family rather than a stranger to be tolerated (mostly anyway) was my grandmother. -3-
@sirDukeDevin Showing tolerance and weakness at all costs to people who hate you and everything you stand for and cherish, is the far worse sin between the two, however.
🔱: How do you feel?
🍵: Like half my heart is missing.
👧 : I'm here! I'm right here!
🍵: No, not that one. *giggles*
THIS MOMENT WAS SO CUTE AND CECI'S RESPONSE IMPLIES SHE CONSIDERS GIGI TO BE A PART OF HER HEART. AUTOFISTER MY BELOVED
@Gammy64641479@Kotazumaa What do you mean, they have literally been spamming that shit culturally for years worldwide now. It got utterly ruined and taken over.
It's like trying to disassociate star wars from fucking nerds, it's impossible. -3-