Today’s job market combines the abusiveness of 1900s jobs and uselessness of 2000s jobs. Somebody will be like “I do growth onboarding for a cupcake company that has a compliment on every wrapper.” And you’ll be like “oh that sounds fun” and they’ll be like “actually they hit us”
Stop torturing yourself by going back in your mind and doing a play by play of what happened, what was said, and what wasn’t. Just because things could’ve been different, that doesn’t mean they could’ve been better. It's time to move on. This is the sign that you're looking for.