Omo I’m done
I’ll be taking a break from everything including forex
I have never felt this much despair in my life before.
I can’t even remember the last time I had any sense of achievement or accomplishment in anything i do
Winning a game , hitting TP on a trade , completing something I’ve working on for a while,
Nothing i just feel nothing.
So i would be taking a break to try and get myself back again.
I can’t allow myself to drown into this void that I can’t comprehend it’s depth
Talk about physical pain. The last time i lived a day without any sort of pain has been half a decade
My back and neck pain with constant migraines alone is enough to make my daily life miserable.
Not to mention I’m in a debt of around 2million naira.
I’m 24 living with my parents. Seeing myself in the mirror everyday just always reminds me how much of a failure I’ve become.
Just a dead weight in the house
Sometimes they even wonder if I’m just being greedy
Not knowing things i had to do to even buy data to stay online
Even my last $17 I’ll have to spend it
I can’t buy a Gft account and be offline without data and empty stomach
At least i can manage $15 for a week on food stuffs and $2 on data to stay online for a while at least
I’ll have to rethink every decision of my life. Cause shits not working out at all.
I wish i can run to another state where no one knows me and start all over again.
I thank God for prop-firms to be honest. Shit could’ve been worse.
@FundedNext was my first prop-firm and also first to give me the experience of a payout. 3 payouts . Spent $1,197 total on 9 accounts with them
And @GoatFunded as well that has been my only firm for the past 8 months and has also paid my bills for 7 months . With total of 5 payouts 🔥
Spent $235 total on 6 accounts with them
Been 10 months since i went completely bankrupt.
Lost my shop in 23, my land in 24, my savings and investments in 25. Might as well just take me this 2026
I had a $50k @FundedNext account that gave me hope of my 5 years savings recovery ❤️🩹 lost the account at phase 2 and lost that hope.
@GoatFunded renewed that hope for me. But the plans I structured didn’t go as planned and failed.
Lost 5 accounts with @GoatFunded this year
3 $25K and 2 $5K accounts. With most of them being recently , completely my fault. As i didn’t pay attention to my daily DD losing my floating profit
Lost 1 $10K account with @fundingpips Phase 2 recently as well. Same daily DD breach after loosing more than $500 of daily floating profit. My fault.
I need to reflect and reset my mind to be able to restart again. The past still has its weight on me.
I need to let it go Wasted 5 years of my life omo😖.
But i have to let it all go regardless like it never happened, and maybe i would be free from this nightmare.
The fear of failure is the begging of it.
Make person life just calm down spoil see wetin i sitdown type . Omo fuckkk