@kaane0 Nah same I do anything to avoid any appointments. I‘m still traumatised from being forced into treatments including weigh ins over and over again as a minor
@itsmeNEKO_444 SAME FOR ME. Also, when I B/P a lot, I experience tetany which is probably due to the rapid potassium loss. This happens much more often than when I was a higher BMI and it‘s more severe, the cramps can become so bad that I can hardly move at all. Waking up is hell too
everything is centered around my esting disorder, it has become my only purpose of existence, my no 1 priority. I lost literally everything just to stay disordered, I live in complete isolation as a jobless and probably soon homeless fuck
@mayssdiaryy@bathroomsinked I get half a day of sleeping when restricting because my energy is so low. I struggle to get sleep during b/p phases though, I always wake up from hyperrealistic nightmares where I binge, think it happened fr and start flushing water
@itsmeNEKO_444 (2) nerve damage though if there is not enough fat and muscle to protect the nerves which happened to me, the area is still numb even though month has passed
@itsmeNEKO_444 Ty :3 I was around bmi 11 on that pic and tbh it wasn’t as satisfying as cutting when my BMI was higher since there is much less fat to cut through and it‘s not possible to cut deeper without hitting something. Burning myself is my alternative, it‘s easier to cause permanent (1)