like I'm fucking awful during my spiral to the point where someone I genuinely love and loves me the same despite my emotional issues told me that he felt awful because of the way I was talking abt me.
genuinely got a wake up call when I was having a spiral and accusing my boyfriend that he fucking hated me and despised being around me and that he resented me and he said to stop being mean to him
half the reason I even drink is to numb my emotions heightened by bpd that I feel normal enough not be a volatile bomb around ppl ts awesome as fuck idk why yall hate having bpd