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no matter how long ive been trying im always gonna have to keep trying yk

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i hate recovery

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my biggest jeans which used to be the only ones that fit me comfortably the past few months are now officially loose but i cant celebrate yet cus im still fat ask

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@butitscold like most men <33

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told my boyfriend i dont count the cals in my monster and he said if i drink 2 per day thatll add up to 1 kg a year

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also dont know if i should believe the people saying hot water is better for ur digestion bc that makes sense since it might help u burn faster but also cold water makes a lot of sense since it seems like it would use more energy

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@butitscold since im already looking like a clown defending him,, in his defence he meant it as "ohh its only 10 cal, thats only one kg a year" but i still agree w u that all men should talk less bc ofc i took it as 'a whole kg' instead of 'just a kg' bc yk me

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@butitscold tbf he doesnt know shit about my relationship w food but yea

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@steviatalkin thanks i hate it <3

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@JADEKCALS oh yeah for sureee

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@JADEKCALS girl samee, just got back

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when im in a healthy mindset ill imagine restricting as this stressful thing thats bad for me but once i start restricting everything inside me calms down and i feel better and better with each passing day

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@JADEKCALS yesss i think sativa triggers me more, but if i focus rlly hard and really lock in and tell myself im not eating, it lowk works?? i think once i start eating, even if its a scheduled meal, that seems to trigger me😭

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smoking weed turns me into some binge monster and back when i was restricting that sucked and ruined my progress but now that im trying to eat sorta healthy binging makes me gain and i feel like the weight i lost restricting all that time is now slowly coming back and i hate it

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if only i saw my weight gain as an opportunity to learn to accept my body now that its healthy bc ive realised from my lw that no matter how much i lose itll never be enough, instead of this opportunity to relapse and lose that weight again

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anyway i think i really need to start limiting my snoking

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I wanna kms <33

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thinking about how a while ago I had like a mini relapse, lost 5 kg and realised I was going down a bad path again so I stopped but also kept off the 5 kg and tbh I've been struggling ever since being very tempted to do it again but also that just sounds like a crash diet