The knife drives deeper when i realize you do things out of what feels like obligation and not because you want to or have any desire to do things with me. Yet, here i am and stay. If you only knew how much i wish i could leave and ascend.
I’ve been reflecting. I can count on one hand the times I’ve been wanted or desired in all my relationships and my marriage. Is it crazy to want these things? When I think about it, I can understand why people stray. I just can’t bring myself to do it because it’s been done to me
I’ve gotten to the point where it’s just easier to concede, than stand up and fight or argue. Just let them have their way and walk away. Do what you want and just let me be. I’m tired.