I lived in the UK for the first 15 years of my life and when I moved back to my native country, I always felt out of place, luckily going to an international high school definitely helped me find my people.
And I can't blame them, for a large majority of the time people are too relationship focused when meeting new people, which I also struggled with for a period of time.
I don't know if it's because of me being tiny but it's always been this way. The fear I feel gets worse when there's somebody who has a large amount of muscles or fat. Do you know anybody else with a phobia like this?