thinking of selling all my belongings , putting all my earnings into a place that will penalize me if I was to touch it, and going into semi-starving artist mode . the way these algorithms work now a days, makes me feel like I’m starting from square one again, after being inactive for a while; and I like it . it’s humbling af, & the only way to better that circumstance, is to rebuild/reignite community off of consistency, & dropping dope shit . might play with uncertainty and shift my focus back over to being an artist . flipping work for profit margins is lucrative & instant, but I missed being expressive & creative . to make a long story short , I feel like it’s time to tweak the balance a bit
@weird0hh Yea I’ve been working out twice a day now, instead of once . And i been reading more and attending lectures in the area . So definitely been more active these last few days . It’s either that or die of boredom haha
@9DRMVIL4 Oddly enough , not too crazy this time around . Usually when i take breaks they go crazy . Today i feel it the most tho . First 3 days were a breeze , which is odd , cause those are usually the worst
my compassion decreases when obvious patterns are noticed . beggars who indulge once given a break , instead of setting themselves up, get no type of pity . they deserve poverty
the goal is to make the simple complex, for the sake of understanding; then to get back to the simplicity of things. the hard part isn’t making shit deeper than it is, but reaching an understanding, where everything that you made complicated, becomes simple again
“our minds & bodies r veils of the light within.the uninitiate is a dark star,& the great work 4 him is 2 make his veils transparent by purifying them.this purification is really simplification;it’s not that the veil is dirty,but that the complexity of it’s fold makes it opaque”