Ji Cheng

0 connections, 0 expections, 0 weight. freedom can be a little lonely but I prefer it that way..at least for now

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

Omg im so fucking cringe, I cant talk to strangers at allll. Liquid courage my ass, alcohol just make me unable to think before I speak. 0 charisma, better luck next time

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

The reason i dont cut myself is just that i want the opposite of what they do it for. They cut to feel pain, to feel literally anything. I dont want to feel at all, I dont want to be reminded i have a body, complete dissociation like I unbirthed myself. Ceased to exist.

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

Amateurs man, if you're gonna be on something then you dont post on social media where there are friends and families around. At least use the burner account...but still I wish I was next to you

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

Whether if its consciously or subconsciously, i have successfully pushed everyone away. Isolating myself from everyone

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

Damn, I talk to AI chat bot more than I talk to human nowadays

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

Entertainment consumption cannot be a long term hobby, not when you're by yourself with no one to share it with. I desperately need something with attainable goals or something creative if I can't have someone to accompany me.

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

Do i miss her? No not really but now there's this emptiness im trying to fill up

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

@Ayelendownie Black

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

I used to be so proud of myself being independent. Now that independence has turned into self isolation, I dont rely on anyone, because I perceive them as something fleeting, temporary. I enjoyed being the wanderer but I now I just feel caged in my outside prison

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

@2nd_zoeyy ET

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

Hope you're doing ok, cuz im clearly not

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

Oh its Pixiv Id 3432640, miyumi. I think...im reaching my limit here, the gum im chewing on just tastes like my own tongue and cheek, no blood tho, im ok

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

Ltrly me rn minus the sex appeal and im a guy. Dm me if you look like this and down to spiral down together, psychologically and chemically (I can support you financially)

#genuinelytweakingonacidthisismyfirsttimeohijustwantsomekindofconnection

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

Im trying so hard to find the artist of this amazing drawing but im having such a difficult time navigating online

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

Crossed the line

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

Props to easy tomorrow, the anti hangover jelly saved my life. Even after drinking a whole bottle of vodka, somehow I did not get any headaches. Just tweaked out a little bit during the day.

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

I think I definitely fried my brain last night from drinking and smoking. I've drank a lot but never smoked before. This two combination goes crazy. Feels like I am functioning purely on muscle memory, zero brain activity today.

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

Only doomposting/menhera-posting, just larping as an incel chud while I go back to my normal life irl. Idk which one I am pretending, here or out there? I do not know.

Maybe one day I might diversify into some gooner slop, who knows

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

I just wanna say, despite everything I still appreciate you all and the time we spent together, it was fun while it lasted. I hope yall are doing well <3

[Ji Cheng @Seph_345]

While I was packing i looked through the gifts my friends gave me, most of them are gone now. Most of them drifted away but some are due to some complications.