I want to do these things for me, but I lose that fight against myself, because I expect way more from me than anyone else. Iโm way too hard on myself to be my own encouragement, somehow feeling like Iโm falling behind my own potential.
if I may be so open; few things bum me out more than wanting to draw only to end up fighting against fibromyalgia pains or adhd or depressive paralysis to get through it and hate my works in the end because of how much better i feel i could have done if i had my whole heart in it
i donโt talk about a lot and i donโt know whoโs there to hear it but circumstantially iโm just in a constant state of fighting to do what i donโt want to lose love for, and it can be really taxing mentally to the point where i just donโt share anything โfinishedโ anymore in shame