I hate myself so much right now.
Ridden with pain and loathing
Hating the world, hating all the miss opportunities, all the people who succed while I'm here suffering through pain, my desire to create gone.
All I want to do is lay down and waste away. The world will keep turning
I just wish I knew why they hate me and why almost everyone else in our group sided with them.
Just so I can get over it.
It happened so much in the past that I was left behind with no explanation at all that I'm wondering...What's wrong with me? [5/5]
Cause I've been encouraging them and got left with nothing
I wonder if they ever think back to me and regret their actions...or if I'm just...nothing. Just someone annoying they made the mistake of letting in their lives.
[4/5]
just can't let go of the past. It's affecting me mentaly and preventing me from drawing like I used to. I know I shouldn't blame others for my mental state, but I just wish they knew how much their action hurt me.
Am I jealous? Yeah a bit
[3/5]
I was there to support them, gave so much time to a project I thought would be awesome, only for everything to go down the drain.
I don't want to wish bad things to other people, yet it hurts so much when I see how successful they've become vs me that got left behind that [2/5]
A couple of years ago, someone I thought was a friend hurt me. I put my trust in them and they broke it, and to this day I still don't know why they decided they didn't like me anymore.
Now they're a super popular artist, working with a brand I love so I see them everywhere [1/5]
@twistyblitzy *deep inhale*
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BOIS!!! TALK TO EACH OTHER YOU GD DOOFUS.
STOLAS! TAKE WHAT IS YOURS AND MAKE HIM UNDERSTAND YOUR LOVE BY VIOLENTLY FUCKING HIM
Do you think people would even noticed if I stopped commenting on their stuff?
I'm in this very weird head space where I feel like nothing I do matters. Do my support even matter? I doubt...