I feel I've been locked away, somewhere deep down. I can hear myself faintly, sometimes talking, sometimes screaming. But most times, I can't hear or see me at all.
I don't want to be a new person. I don't want to be this person. I want to get back to me.
@NoContactSurviv Absolutely. The narcissist I was with is in law enforcement. It's the perfect place for abusers to abuse, and be able to cover it up and get away with it. He also climbed his way up to head of security in our church, and became personal security for our pastor.
THIS! If you've just met someone, and you feel something's not right... Or if you've been w/someone for awhile and you've started searching online about hurtful things they keep saying and doing to you... Trust yourself, leave. Don't lose years of your life to narcisstic abuse.
I did not want to be with him, went on a date to not offend thinking it would be the last. Lost my youth to him. Please listen to other survivors on here and leave as soon as you can. Educate yourselves on narcissism. Imagine growing old with these types that should be enough.
The coverage of R Kelly's behaviors and reactions have been disturbing, angering, and triggering. It has been a long time coming, the beginnings of the acknowledgement and justice for the girls and women who have been damaged.
over and over again, to anyone who will listen. Most likely posting his "expertise and insight" on the current case, because he was close to the old one. The damaging of so many lives for so many years, and this narcisstic abuser uses it as the highlight of his career.
@_PrincessGaby I'm so sorry you're not well! Im wishing you quick recovery! Thanks for sharing in this with me, the support is greatly appreciated. The detours can be a bit of a jolt, but you're right, we go through, to get to the brighter things. You hang in there, too. I know we can do it!
I have to keep telling myself that healing isn't straightforward. I feel I've done well this past year, but have recently gotten stuck in a place that I really don't want to be in. I know I'm better, because I'm not crippled by it. I just really don't want to face it right now.
Healing isn't linear. It's periods of
moving forward, of standing still, of
walking in circles, and crawling with
tears. Just because every day isn't
perfect, doesn't mean healing isn't
happening. Don't give up!
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