In which I fall deeper every day. And I stopped fighting to get out of it. I don’t want to get out of it. I will never be able to. I want this to end. I don’t want to be here anymore.
I don’t know if “I want to die” are the words that would fit. So I’m just Gonna say I wouldn’t care if I died now. People keep asking me if I’m not excited about my future and the things that are about to happen. But I’m not. Not even if someone would told me that I’m (1)
For as long as I can remember I always got over this rib wrecking pain,but this time is different. Im not sad anymore. I don’t cry because of sadness or disappointment,but because I’m exhausted. I’m exhausted of myself and the life. It feels like an endless hole (4)