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💙 Chester💔💔 ~Who cares if one more light goes out? well I do~💔🖤

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

Not only am I crying so hard about the fact that @LZZYHALE replied to me, but also that the answer was a yes!!😁
Proper fangirl mode rn 😭😁❤️ https://t.co/y5LfU71HSr

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

@bmthofficial I needed this today...❤️

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

Also I have a blog that I attempt to post on daily, about depression and what it's like living with mental illnesses, and how life is.
Some posts are potentially triggering, but please let me know what you think!!

https://t.co/wA1ZKnDptY

#Depression #mentalillness #blog #bpd

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

Im still alive guys (only physically)
I'm trying to come on here as much as I can but I can't promise I'll be on here a lot.
I may be on my Instagram more (https://t.co/JEZc41qhXx) so you can follow me on there.

I love you all ❤️😔

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

@cafedrine Hey honey sorry I've been away for so long but I truly appreciate you and your tweet! I've been very up and down lately and came off of here as there was so much about C and it was hard for me! I've missed you so much though, I hope you're okay ❤️❤️❤️

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

@cafedrine @My_SimpleMind @Elena_Marie_89 @Mizzey_001 @sandra_MilenaLP @hotdogs_ketchup @AngieM572 @JulianeWenke @AlienStrawberry @marmarinchen @MarinaW3 @WispyLily90 @Silke170178 @Baronin7 @menekbehi_11 @penny_vogiatzis @TiaraVictoria88 @angely3108 @DraganaRenduli2 @Scarlet_beats @chazy4life @CastleofGlass89 @CatTalks720 @Just_Alasia @FUCKDEPRESSIO13 Love you lots honey ❤️

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

So yeah that's part of my life rn 😔😭

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

Haven't been on in forever, I am sorry about that. I
t's just been really hard, and coming on here makes it harder.
Sometimes it's because theres sadness & things of C everywhere. Sometimes it's reminders. And just sometimes it's because everyone is so lovely and I feel guilty.

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

I keep feeling like I'm going to relapse somehow.
But really I just want to not be here anymore 💔

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

@menekbehi11 I'm seeing them on Friday! About the best thing happening right now (:

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

I give up.
Don't want to fight anymore.

Life is shit!!!!!!!

Any why wasn't I the lucky one? Why don't you love me?😭💔💔 Why didn't I find you first?💔

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

The next 2 weeks are going to be hell 😭

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

Ugh I just can't right now. Too much going on and not enough strength to deal with it

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

I can't find the words to say to you. My birthday message may seem short or emotionless,but I've spent ages thinking of the words to say. They may not sound like much,but they came straight from my heart,along with all the unspoken words. I hope you can hear them too
I love you🖤

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

Happy birthday C!🖤

This is so hard to write - it's so hard talking about/to you. But I have to.

I wish you were here to celebrate, here to make life better... but I hope that wherever you are, you have an amazing day, that you rock out and enjoy yourself!😔🖤

I love you ❤️

[Dave Phoenix Farrell @phoenixlp]

Getting out and enjoying the day with @omandm guitar shredder mrmoneycat ! If you look very… https://t.co/GWQzgmWA8L

[Avril Lavigne @AvrilLavigne]

🎶My new playlist on @Spotify🖤
https://t.co/tIasZX1CYu

[💙 @SoFuckingMessy]

My depression is taking all of me.
I can't get myself out of bed,but I can't sleep.
I don't know the point of life - is it just to suffer? Because that's all it is right now.
Will I ever find happiness? I don't deserve it, but I'd like to experience it just once!
#fuckdepression