ser uma pessoa que têm ideações suicidas desde os 11 anos e que sempre viu o suicídio como uma opção faz com que vc olhe pra vida miserável dos outros e pense com frequência "eu realmente não sei como essa pessoa nunca tentou se matar"
everyday i want to send a questionnaire to everyone i know like
-do you like me
-are you mad at me
-what are your least favorite things about me
-what are things you like about me
-are we friends
-what is my role in your life
-if i disappeared forever would u be sad
@bentandhooked you have such a way with words that everything thing you write is so beautiful, even if its the most mundane or stupid thing, i treasure being able to see your words
theres always been something abt me. since childhood to now, there is something deeply wrong. can they sense it? do they know? can they see through it? im really really trying. im trying so so hard.
getting home from a social situation and feeling a sort of aching loneliness and lingering resignation that despite being surrounded by all these people i do not belong