gue sbrnya org yg gampang seneng, even from the smallest things. as expected, the things i do currently doesnt give me as much joy as before. yk what? i feel pathetic krn driving force gue cm happiness. once i cant feel that, theres nothing left the world can offer
gue ngerasa idup yg fana ini sia sia. memang kynya depression is slowly creeping me up again. blm bs dapetin semangat idup for now. pdhl gue br selesai sakit. i still habe much to do after im better. gue kaya orang yg butuh sense of purpose pdhl aslinya im not that kind of person
sbrnnya slh satu ketakutan gue itu adalah ya… gimana kalo gue gabisa punya anak. what if i do want to have one with my partner? a biological one. i may say i dont want kids now, but hb later? what if i genuinely cant have kids? what can i do
gue ga takut sakitnya tp gue takut outcomenya. ik ini anxiety talking but what if i took that brca test and its positive? mastectomy dan angkat ovarium it is. or what if my physique wont suffice for carrying a baby and could harm myself?