The fact that our mind can go from anger to denial, and acceptance. Life is simple when you look from the audience seat, but in the field everything is so complicated and hard to process.
I warned you, but you didn't want to be consistent with your ideal, you're just hoping that one day it would happen eventually, that kind of case would likely happen to an individual who do not passively act with intimate as the way relieving their emotional stress.
If you want to love that much, why do you still do something that cause the connection with that guy loosen, you know what you're doing but your greed of not wanting to be alone physically has gotten to your mind and body subconciously.
I don't think I can find anyone that I can express my sincere love to them, because what i got myself into recently really made my wall thicker. I realized this and just have to move on with the same phase of "love yourself" once again.
@l_bishh @Hutuhu52 @sentdefender and by the way, I don't even hate you guys, The fact that I hate our leaders is real. I hate war I just want to be chill in the peaceful era.
I always forgive myself in some cases, not all cases of course.
Above all, if I have a wish I would wish for the authority to control my emotion by just thoughts, but humans are meant to be cautious at all time, so I cam't wish for that unless I am reckless😂