My mom used to pack daal, chicken, rice, whatever she cooked, for my cousins living alone. Now Iβm the one receiving home-cooked meals that last me 2β3 meals. Feels like the kindness she put into the world found its way back to her daughter. π₯Ί
also, lately, I feel like time is running out. When I was younger, I didnβt try anything, I didnβt look after myself, didnβt wear clothes that I wanted to wear. Now I look at myself and regret it cause I have grown up so much, and I look all different and nothing seems to fit me
I feel invisible here not only in terms of how I look but the most important thing to me- my career and my field. I am doing really well, I w my team represented our school nationally and won; which was really nice but at the same time I feel very unseen idk how thatβs possible.
I thought this was fun cause I hadnt liked someone for a long time, now I feel a little weird cause idk what to do w this feeling and i am kinda thinking I am ready to look at guys romantically, but at the same time I feel invisible too
When Dostoevsky said:
βIsolate as much as you want to become stronger, even if you see that loneliness is an unbearable hell, it is much better than the multiple masks of humansβ