I’m so embarrassed by all the pathetic and desperate shit I’ve done in an attempt to feel loved, and I’m more embarrassed that nothing has ever worked.
the hardest thing I've learned this year is that you can never force someone to communicate and work things out. you can't beg someone to see that you're worth fighting for and i stand by that now
Every night I get to thinking about how my future kids will never meet my brother.. they’ll only hear stories of his infectious laugh and his big bear hugs. That’s what breaks me the most.