I've just purchased my dream home and with it comes the gift of a lifetime of financial security.
I don't talk about my bigger dreams enough, only my wildest fantasies. How do I convey the feelings in my heart of all this gratitude and joy.
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Words are not enough... 💋
Overcoming imposter syndrome starts with self-reflection. Identify your strengths, accomplishments, & the value you bring to the adult industry & your fans. Celebrate your achievements, no matter how small they "seem". I love tweeting mine at @SWersPostingWs
@SWersPostingWs Remember, Imposter syndrome is a common experience, & it doesn't define you. You are talented, capable, & deserving of success in this industry. Embrace your journey & believe in yourself.
And until you do, know that we'll be over here, believing in you, in the meantime. 💕
I’ve dreamt of moments like this. Last month my lil (grown ) sis and ( her husband) got to see my house for the first time too. I really felt so accomplished. It’s the small things like these 🥺 I’m the first person in my family to own a house and have their own business.
Next week will be the first time my mom will visit me in MY HOUSE 🥹 She’s only ever been to my apartments so I’m trying to make sure everything is perfect
Woah 11 years sober.
Definitely one of my hardest years. I got Kuma shortly after rehab and was never away from him since except in the last year. TBH there were a few times sleeping without him in my car that I didn’t think I would make it but I’ve built myself up from less, and I’m so grateful for all the humans that have been a part of my support network and life in the past year.
I can say that I’m a helluva lot happier than I was a year ago, rediscovering myself, then finding a partner like @pr3ttyp1nkpuss1 who has been so supportive, but also allows me to pursue my own needs as we grow individually & together is a blessing. Learning it’s ok to have needs, to be vulnerable without fear of it being used against you, to communicate without judgement and create clear boundaries that we each respect has been incredible.
Love you all, thank you 🙏
just presented to a class of undergrads about sex work. they all had so many good questions, came in with an open mind, treated me with dignity & respect & left the session saying thank you for educating them that “sex work is work” 🥹🥲
I just wanted to write a lil appreciation post, my entire life I was always on the outside, it caused me to be a bitter mean person for so many years, I never fit in anywhere, I never felt like I could relate to anyone, and nobody understood me, relationships, friends, sports teams, jobs, family I just felt like I was different, if got worse around 14 when everyone started drinking and partying and I had no interest, (have still never drank) I would want to go swimming or exploring, anything other than sit at somebody’s house while everyone drank, so I spent a lot of time alone, hockey was my biggest love, and making my teammates laugh and being able to fight to protect them was the first time I really felt like I could slightly be apart of something, I remember my hands being cut up and sore but having my teammates feel protected by me made everything go away, I needed major hip surgery which put a halt to the very small potential I had in hockey, so when I was 21 hockey for me ended I thought forever, I bounced around jobs and friend groups and failed relationships of trying to pretend I was somebody I wasn’t, then I started modelling and acting full time, I felt like I was an alien, everyone wanted to talk about themselves and only valued people with success, I met a bunch of super cool people too but it was the same story of being on the outside, it wasn’t until I started doing porn, I felt like every day I met somebody who was so special, I was anonymous my first 3 years making content doing POV and wearing masks and covering tattoos etc, I was doing a rough anal scene one night, then going to work for Netflix the next day, I felt like I was lying to everyone I met, I was slowly more pulled towards the adult world which was always so exciting to me, acting became so much less exciting everyday, and meeting some of the coolest people I have ever met in porn, and they were free, they had sex on the internet showing their face, they were everything I wanted to be, free of judgement, free of shame and free of care, and then my brother died, it showed me very quickly how important it is to do what you want and not give a fuck what other people think because you might die by yourself in the middle of the night. I look up to so many sex industry people, I still can’t believe the amount of amazing people who know I exist, I got back into hockey 2 years ago after my hip finally functioning properly, and getting into porn showing my face since October has been by far the greatest combo of things in my life, I feel at peace, I get to be exactly who I am everyday, I don’t have to lie, or pretend I’m somebody I’m not, very much the opposite the more I reveal about my true self the more this world accepts me, I am my 100 percent true self, I never pretend to be somebody I’m not like I have my entire life, I have never been accepted like this, the idea of people paying money to watch my life, or people following my Twitter and appreciating me, the love I feel, the comments I get is so overwhelming, I could cry about it everyday, I’m the happiest I have ever been, and I owe so much of it to you guys, from people who work with me, to people who support me on here and onlyfans, I feel like I fit in, for the first time ever, I have been so motivated to work on myself, and get healthy again mentally and physically, therapy and working on getting back into meditation and fitness which I couldn’t handle after Steve died, I feel like I have a bunch of cheerleaders who are cheering me on, to be the best version of myself, and trust me to take care of myself and people I work with, I truly love you guys, so from the very very deepest part of my heart, thank you.
Y’all. I have some incredible news. My manuscript on the hog house ranch, a 19th century brothel in Iowa, was accepted for workshopping at Iowa’s famous writing workshop.
But ya know, shits expensive. If you can spare some $, please consider donating: https://t.co/NnFVaalirU