this scene probably is the most heart aching one for me, being such a highly dedicated fan with notes piled all over your oshis maga, simply to be told by them that no one else has ever cared about their work compared to a person you’ve had bad history with
I stay up all night and tell myself I'll take a nap in the morning, but then I backtrack and say I'll sleep at night. I'm stuck in this never-ending loop of going against what I say I'll do.