you’re allowed to fall in love during your healing process btw, someone will love the unhealed version of you. you’re worthy of love even when you’re not the best version of yourself.
stop letting people consume you. they didn’t call? go to sleep. they didn’t message you? put your phone down and have a better day. they left you on read? delete the conversation. they didn’t make an effort? match their energy. don't let anyone drain you of your happiness.
i dont understand romantic feelings, nor platonic, all i know is when i feel something, it runs deep into my veins and its all too consuming and i end up getting too fixated, i still dont know how to fix any of it still