Idk where I'm going with this now guess it's just stream of thoughts, because I thought of a lot. Honestly, I don't even know what I've been doing this whole time, it was a discovery journey of ones self... or I'm still just confused.
It was mainly a fear of not being seen or not being interested in, though now I see with fanart it is practically the same thing. You post your fanart, people see it, leave a like and maybe a comment, then move on never knowing who even made it most of the time.
But it's still hard getting it out of my head while being scared that people won't be interested. Although, with fanarts it's only the same, people will look at your work, leave a like and maybe a comment, and never know who actually made it. That's how it is.