TheFantasyMoose

Relentless #MentalHealthAwareness advocate

Founder: #FHG Charity tourney & @MooseLeagues4MH

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[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

My daughter wrote this song about my life last month about both my struggles and triumphs. Lyrics are 100% original and genuine with vocals from an AI app (looking to produce it). Please give it a listen and be kind, she's still just a teenager. Thank you

https://t.co/Ua6dS08xNq

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

@BFTGJason Appreciate you

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

Hey everyone. I have absolutely no idea with this app's algorithms if this post will even show up for people but if so, please drop a like or comment if you don't mind. I'm trying to figure some things out for the next chapter of my life. Thank you. I hope you're all well. Cheers

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

I've been battling #mentalillness for 30+ years & advocating for 10+ years. I've seen or heard almost everything imaginable.

When you're near rock-bottom, you have to stop betting on yourself to just "get through it" & get real help. That's why I'm here. I matter. And so do you.

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

What's up #MooseNation?

I hope y'all are well. I'm back at the resort for some more R&R and by that I mean the psych ward at a local hospital

I know I've said it many times, but YOU know yourself better than anyone else. If you are truly struggling, don't wait. Please. 1/2

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

@PacingPete As someone who drove himself to the hospital this morning for ideation and who is typing this from a short-stay psych ward, the answer is yes. I do have a plan. It sucks to have to have one, but the world is a better place with me in it. With both of us in it.

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

Every year on this day I cry. Always. Without fail. I never expected to live beyond my 20's. Today I turn 49. I'm thankful to still be alive and be here for my kids. I'm grateful.

Birthday wish:

Everyone who reads this reach out to someone today & check on them please. Cheers.

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

@AndrewHallFF you can Chase this one down. :)

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

@Guap_SZN_ Invite sent. Thank you for taking another team, happy to have you.

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

Drafting from the 1.04 with no 3rd round pick.

https://t.co/yTkdgVKr3P

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

Drafting from the 1.03 with an extra 1st and multiple extra picks.

https://t.co/vJM3GuBKap

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

I will try to keep this brief

I am not well

This bout w/ depression is the biggest hurdle I've ever experienced & I am exhausted trying to fight it off

I have no idea how I'm going to financially afford it but I'm safe in the hospital. Again

Good juju & 🙏 appreciated. Thx.

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

Sitting in a psych ward for recent thoughts of ending my life at the exact same hospital where, 11 yrs ago today, I had a cancerous tumor removed from kidney that could have ended my life is........something.

I'll still find a way to celebrate 11 years cancer free today. Cheers.

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

Good evening. Real talk again:

I am safe and I am okay. I am also back in the psych ward because this is where I need to be. Staring at these walls for potentially 6 days or more is better than 6 feet under.

Whatever it takes is exactly what I will do. This is step 1. Much ♥️

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

Good morning. Trigger warning: Suicide

Tragically, a former classmate of my daughter took her life yesterday. She was 18. Please continue to check on one another & love each other. Send a text or 2 to someone you haven't heard from in a bit while watching games today, please. 🙏

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

At this point, I have two options:

1) Keep living life the way I am which basically consist of a 16-hour intermittent panic attack (truly all day long), knowing I'll eventually give up & take my life

2) Take control and do interventional psychiatry and take back my life.

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

For those texting and messaging, yes I am still alive. And yes, there was a fair amount of time I no longer wanted to be alive in recent months.

If nothing else, I am honest with those around me and with myself. I'm in the worst mental state of my 48 years on this planet. 1/3

[TheFantasyMoose @TheFantasyMoose]

I do also not only acknowledge that there are plenty of people out there who have it worse than myself, but I sincerely feel empathy for every single person who indeed does have it "worse". I'm sorry.

That said this isn't a pissing contest. There are no prizes here. 2/3