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[TheGoddessParis @TheGoddessParis]

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[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

We live in a world where scammers get more respect than ppl who built careers or have normal jobs…shit brazy, the world so fucked…

[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

We living in a world where double standards are the NORM, gaslighting is second nature, insecurity is an insult, being desensitized and ANTI EVERYTHING is “cool” and narcissists are praised and sought after…shit get wiiccckkkkkeeeeddddd!

[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

I hope one day I get hacked and they air this bitch ALL THE WAY OUT my boi….

[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

Be clear tho, I don’t just call a MAN a bitch I know better…but boi these niggas be HOES lmao and I mean the tendencies not because they fuckin everybody…they move like chickens with they heads cut off…crispy crunchy hoes!

[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

Any of this shit…I literally just SPOKE it into existence. Deadass was like “oh, I know I’m gonna go here and meet them and we gone be….” or “oh let me say this shit out loud I bet you we gone end up right in the same room and it’s gone….” I swear. Anybody that really knows me

[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

Sometimes I feel like I have special powers…there’s is LITERALLY no way I should be who I am right now, let alone know the ppl I know…..I came to America from Berlin (against my will lol) and moved to SACRAMENTO, CA…why tf am I me? Like WHY? HOW? I never worked or aimed toward

[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

And I’m constantly thinking of others feelings when it comes to my actions..TUH ten years ago I would walk up to the biggest, and baddest like I OWNED the room and I demanded my presence be appreciated now I be feeling like man let me chill I’m still happy to be here…lol WEAK AF

[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

I used to be fearless when I was younger, that is one thing I do wish I could’ve protected whilst playing in this evil industry. Although I haven’t changed much, that is ONE thing I do miss about my younger self. There was NOTHING that could stop me, nowadays I get nervous…

[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

And of course survival being that I’ve always been considered or classified by the American govt & illiterate society as an “illegal alien” so I’ve always strived to be the smartest, best all around at anything…hence trying to survive in a world I knew nothing about…

[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

I’ve been told once or twice that I have a “reptilian brain” now hear me out….that just means, it derives from the fact that a reptile's brain is dominated by the brainstem and cerebellum, which control instinctual thinking and behavior for survival. I’m big on my instincts….

[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

I really hope I’m able to heal one day from all the shit muhfuckas never apologized for.

[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

I think the most painful shit I deal with daily when I’m feel depressed, is being good at things and ppl want you to be capable to do them ALL the TIME even when I feel dead inside…like I don’t want to give up tattooing at all, but I just don’t have the desire to create at times

[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

Same shit happened when I used to commission paintings/artwork…sometimes it would take forever to finish a piece or orders were so backed up and I was getting called out and accused of “stealing” ppl punk ass deposits simply because I COULD NOT even think straight or create shit

[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

I’ve literally let every creative thing I’ve started/created from the ground up just die out and flip because of depression and the pressure of always trying to please ppl when they don’t give a flying fuck what I’m dealing with internally. That’s all I wanted to get off…

[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

I can tell this HOE ASS RETROGRADE is about to beat the dog shit outta me already! Lol it’s nice as fuck outside and I’m laying in the dark crying about nothing specific…just laying here crying with everything dark and on mute…smh I hate it here.

[🅿️ @brazykatlady]

You gotta be a sick individual to know you’re depressed as hell and sit in the dark and listen to music that makes you even sadder…IT ME, I’m a sick individual…