Sum of all the people and experiences I've had, doesn't matter if I love them or hate them or am indifferent, I'll always carry pieces of those things directly or indirectly and wouldn't be exactly who I am without. So why would i wish to change anything, even my worst mistakes?
Reminding myself that doing the thing is better than not doing it at all regardless of what happens. It's better than being stuck in the same loop thinking about it. When you're sure you're sure.
Doing fun things that are scary just for myself the way i want to. Younger me, I know you're proud of me, and I hope to keep living the moments that you aspired towards.
Maybe some of those "self-sabotaging" made deep in depression aren't really that
Maybe that version of you knows what's best for you and what's not
What's filling your cup and what's emptying it
Its interesting how things can stop meaning anything to you when there was a time you thought they were the most important. That could be sad or bittersweet perhaps but in some instances it can be great because getting there means I've realised my worth.