After explaining to my therapist that my ex seemed so normal when we met, she asked me if I blame myself for his change. I said “sometimes” and she looked at me and said “do you really think you have that much power to create a monster, you do not have super powers”. #narcissist
Took MANY therapy sessions back and forth on whether I truly loved him or loved the idea of who I wanted him to be.
Accepting the difference was a hard one for me to understand.
#narcissist#therapy
Things people don't talk about after a toxic relationship..
Questioning yourself &
wondering if it was your behavior that triggered them
Remembering the good times and thinking "It wasn't that bad"
Feeling guilty
The toxic loyalty to them, and still missing them
#narcissist
My therapist asked me if I ever thought Googling his behavior was a red flag… I realized I never wanted to see the red flags, I was desperate to just find any clue to make it all make sense… make ME feel better. Googling became about me wanting something he couldn’t be ♡
Bumped into an old friend of his yesterday for the first time in years… 3 seconds into the conversation and I was triggered.. I could feel myself getting emotional and worst than that, self doubt kicked it just as it had when I was with him
Confusing and upsetting
#Narcissist