Despite the fundraiser being crashed I had a great time at Quakecon.
I've gotten so much support and I'm grateful for everyone that has helped me.
I wish I got to meet some more of you and hang out but it was chaotic.
I had some fun but didn't forget what I really came for which is to build myself back and get on my feet again.
I met some important people, built the links I need to move forward and build really great things.
That will always be my focus.
It doesn't matter the setback. I'm passionate and determined. I'm set on this path and will earn my way.
Love you guys♥️
I need to elaborate on this, people need to know why its gotten so bad for me....its not a social media thing.
It's an IRL issue. Due to circumstances with my healthcare and support I haven't been living well.
I am not getting the help I need despite seeking it. Doctors have been declining my insurance, my medications are always on backorder and the lapse makes me unable to work most jobs. On top of this I need surgery, sometimes I'm in excruciating pain.
The surgery I need is the result of living in some unsafe conditions, survived a lot. I came out of a home filled with domestic violence and abuse. I shared images of what it was like, rooms and doors were destroyed, doors had to be barricaded, shattered glass on the furniture, it was awful. It was a whole project getting out of there. I posted a video about it this month if people are interested in the story.
Stuff in my house is beginning to break down, food safety is an issue and I had poisoning, no ac, sometimes in the winter no heat.
This year I had the momentum to stabilize my life a little, I want to make the most of that.
I want to go to Quakecon not just as a break from everything I've been through but to meet people and get myself out there and continue building. I need to make something out of this because its been helping me alot.
I don't want to just be here asking for money though. I'll take anything, a work opportunity, or commission. (I do really great promos!)
Just help me get back on my feet please. I want to keep going and do great things.
Ancient influence: Quake III Arena's intro is Norse myth, beat for beat.
Sarge's gun dies. He leaps into the horde. The Vadrigar (Quake Gods) take him at the moment of death- to fight forever.
Valkyrie means "chooser of the slain." Quake didn't invent the respawn. Valhalla did.
Quake is gladiators.
The old gods (Vadrigar) didn't stop at Earth- they tore the mightiest warriors from across the universe into arenas like colosseums. Case in point:
Aliens like Scalebearer. Humans like Ranger. Cyborgs like Visor. The Vadrigar savor every kill. Forever.
I'm going to do a livestream talking about everything from QuakeCon, but I'm waiting for some things: some packages to arrive first that I had to ship home from the con, and some pictures some friends took.
Excited to share everything with you guys!
Photo taken by @NoQuarterSoft
This is what @QuakeCon 2026 looked like across every @Quake game
Quake is far from dead and is very much alive!
See you in the server - https://t.co/SoF0xVO0Qw
One of the best days of my life. I was able to talk to @romero how making the quake maps source code available helped me understand how quake clicked ( thank u so much! Also studying ur design philosophies shaped everything I do!), also gifted him a copy of BRAZILIAN DRUG DEALER 3: I OPENED A PORTAL TO HELL IN THE FAVELA TRYING TO REVIVE MIT AIA I NEED TO CLOSE IT that I brought from Brasil to gift him :D , also talked about the cultural motives behind BRAZILIAN DRUG DEALER, of showing the amazing culture of my country Brasil to the world.
Was also able to personally thank @ID_AA_Carmack for making the Quake source code available and changing my life deeply with that (You and Romero wanting that for the Id games changed a lot of lifes!!).
Was also able to talk to @ThatTomHall how much I freaking LOVE Rise of The Triad!!!
I’m so happy to have met my heroes!! I can’t really define how happy I am. What a amazing moment in my life.
For people who want to catch me. I'm pretty depressed and low energy today.
If you really want to see me I'll be at running smash sets today. Maybe playing the tournament if there's room
I'm absolutely devastated...
To the people that have been supporting my recovery the past few weeks I have a message for you.
Unfortunately the fundraiser has been sabotaged and last night I received an automated ban.
I want to cry.
I logged the channel for security reasons, unusual joining, or someone unauthorized accessing my PC as I was leaving it on occasion and I do have info regarding this.
I don't want to say any more than I have to but. There is some real evil out there, and it's hurt me deeply.
My response will always be the same, to walk away and continue living.
I've worked so hard doing something I love and trying
to give something back people can really appreciate and I'm happy so many of you got to experience that, laugh with me and have fun.
@TwitchSupport has placed an automated ban on my account.
The funds are now in limbo with 0 response or transparency from human support regarding evidence or what it is in relation to.
The funds in question were for my surgery and my well being.
I have medical documentation I can provide detailing the nature of my situation and I desperately am requesting a human contact for review.
I've spent many months building an amazing community that has been a positive force within the platform.
I'd like to continue that with my game development journey moving forward.
I'd like the opportunity to appeal this with a human being where I can discuss the issue in person and have some transparency regarding the situation where I can provide proof.
And at the very least I am requesting that the subs and donations are released and refunded to my supporters.
To everyone that helped me, I just wanted to say thank you and I'm very sorry for the way things have turned out.
I hope I receive a response.
The best we can do now is talk about it and share it with others.
I need to elaborate on this, people need to know why its gotten so bad for me....its not a social media thing.
It's an IRL issue. Due to circumstances with my healthcare and support I haven't been living well.
I am not getting the help I need despite seeking it. Doctors have been declining my insurance, my medications are always on backorder and the lapse makes me unable to work most jobs. On top of this I need surgery, sometimes I'm in excruciating pain.
The surgery I need is the result of living in some unsafe conditions, survived a lot. I came out of a home filled with domestic violence and abuse. I shared images of what it was like, rooms and doors were destroyed, doors had to be barricaded, shattered glass on the furniture, it was awful. It was a whole project getting out of there. I posted a video about it this month if people are interested in the story.
Stuff in my house is beginning to break down, food safety is an issue and I had poisoning, no ac, sometimes in the winter no heat.
This year I had the momentum to stabilize my life a little, I want to make the most of that.
I want to go to Quakecon not just as a break from everything I've been through but to meet people and get myself out there and continue building. I need to make something out of this because its been helping me alot.
I don't want to just be here asking for money though. I'll take anything, a work opportunity, or commission. (I do really great promos!)
Just help me get back on my feet please. I want to keep going and do great things.