when you treat yourself as ONE solid entity
you experience guilt, shame, overwhelm, and confusion
because you be viewing a structural shift in subpersonalities as a personal moral failure or a lack of will power
you are like a pizza my dude (infinite dynamic slices)
⚪️ the WHITE magician seeks to gain control over himself
⚫️ the BLACK magician seeks to obtain control over others
most people are neither white nor black magicians
they're mixtures of both tendencies
it's not GOOD vs EVIL but how consciously they relate to those tendencies?
fully feel your negative emotions without escaping to your head so that they FINALLY become metabolized
only when emotions (energies in motion) are metabolized they can be consciously transformed
that's how you actually update your nervous system's predictions firing
the cheat code for mastering YOUR LUST is integrating the lover archetype
so that you start enjoying showing love non verbally without needing it to be reciprocated and making that felt experience complete in and of itself
i wanna fuck but i don’t
figure that one out bitch
you were lied to because the goal was NEVER to dissolve the ego
it was to dethrone it so it becomes a tool at the service of the Self
that's individuation
because dissolving your ego without integration = shadow inflation AT SCALE
that's why ego death is bullshit
ego inflation = the small part of you crowding out the rest
and it feels like growth but it isn't
because the shadow doesn't ask for your permission
IT DETONATES and leaves you confused as fuck
where your control at, huh?
you look SO CONFUSED 😭
because you assume your identity is singular and static
but your identity is dynamic and you cannot be the SAME YOU 24/7
what’s static about you is THE CENTER that switches between modes (not the modes themselves)
genuine assumption feels like boredom, not excitement
there’s no high emotional charge when an assumption feels true to you
it just is what it is… not a big deal whatsoever
as within so without
law of assumption works thru state
(not declaration)
the state of genuine assumption has zero inflation because there’s nothing to prove
ego inflation is evidence that the assumption hasn’t truly landed
because you’re still performing the belief
which means you don’t have it
julius caesar had a slave whose job was to whisper in his ear throughout the day that he is a mortal and not a god over other people
power corrupts and then the pride comes
and it always comes before the fall so you better be ready
violating the unwritten laws of social exchange will make civilians hate you
simply because they play by the rules they are not conscious of
the rules that were imposed onto them
that's all they know
when i see fat people i immediately think it must suck to be them
but honestly, sitting down as a fat person must be cozy as fuck
standing/walking must be exhausting for the skeleton tho
perfectionism is not a pursuit of excellence
but a shield against the agony of exposure triggered by the shame wound
and yeah, perfectionism makes failure guaranteed
failure/self-sabotage → guilt → shame → perfectionism → failure/self-sabotage
and then the loop restarts