Existent Thing

21 (shedtwt)
he/him
online diary ig

[Existent Thing @Totallyexisten7]

I'm only ever thinking abt starting testosterone again oh my god I'm so scared it won't work it's best with the body fat distribution and ill have disgusting birthing hips and a narrow waist forever ill be willing to gain weight if it's for T

[Existent Thing @Totallyexisten7]

i love benadryl

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i hope i actually be able to look like a guy i always feel so bad everyday

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@eatwithdeath thank you 😭

[Existent Thing @Totallyexisten7]

#bodycheck #edrtwt do I have some spine and shoulder blade abnormalities? my body is so disgusting I hate knowing this is what's hidden under my clothes its all I think about. BMI 15.3

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my hair looks better now this is an old pic

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why do I not lose weight like other ppl im so hideous I looked back at these ephotos I took of myself and im actuslly hideous grotesque monster my upper body is so scarily thin and disgusting but my butt and below are normal my bone structure looks fucked and abnormal

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ive gotten back into overeating at night i feel horrile i feel a binge thing coming on again

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i love being drunk and eating so much fuckign good oh em gee i ove my life YESYYSS

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@3Aes4h3 are you okay?

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theress still a bottle of whiskey ive been drinkign from i doubt anybodys looked at it, ill replace it once i start driving on my own ill buy a new one plus some for myself LOL

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i wish i had weed and alcohol

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I got my Twitter back hello. how do I prevent my posts from getting taken down and Twitter banning me for 3 days I thought I'd lose my account forever

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okai I try to sleep again Bai goodnight

[Existent Thing @Totallyexisten7]

oh my god I can't stand this I wish I had a dick I want to jerk off a cock my own cock i wish I had a dick I cant believe this is the life ive been given kill me

[Existent Thing @Totallyexisten7]

I used to throw up in the shower everyday now I always forget to or I eat later and go straight to bed

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gonna hang with my friend tmr theyre gonna drive me to do some errands IM SO EXCITED nad im going to buy the ntbtstm blueray dvd and make them watch it with me FUCKK EYSSS

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im runnin gout of time the night is getting late so quick i have to wake up at 9am tmr GOD

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i want to make food so i can fuckign drink BUT MY BROTHE RIS DOWN THERE I DONT WAN TTO TALK TO HIM AUHGHH