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[chéri @urang3I]

New diagnosis unlocked (its not accurate and my psychiatrist is stupid)

[chéri @urang3I]

Omg need

[Strawburri @pinkpradabagon]

Im so fucking fat

[chéri @urang3I]

Got a massage today and cried during it cause she held my hands so hard it started hurting and reminded me of when my ex would hit my arm for no reason 🤣🤣🤣

[chéri @urang3I]

When the diagnosis section is the longest in my whole record

[chéri @urang3I]

I keep wasting my money on food cause i cant stop b/p and now not only am i BROKE but i need to get at least TWO FUCKING ROOT CANALS

[chéri @urang3I]

يا الله اخاف انام وقلبي يوقف يارب صبرني وقويني يارب يارب مدري كيف بعيش كذا

[chéri @urang3I]

I wanna die not because im suicidal but because i genuinely dont see any point, like i think alllll my problems would be fixed cause i literally will not be here to deal with them lol

[chéri @urang3I]

26. I called my ex after a year of no contact and he was so worried he probably thinks i lost my mind, i kept venting and crying
27. I found out that that same ex is dating my friend… he was supposed to be my husband but okay. I broke no contact to get him back lowkey but nvm

[chéri @urang3I]

Things that happened over the last 2 weeks (so i can come back and see my progress… hopefully)
1. Stopped my meds
2. Got prescribed antipsychotics and also stopped them
3. Sh relapse after being 4 years clean
4. Called my boss sobbing and almost lost my job

[chéri @urang3I]

24. My mom keeps telling me to travel with my friends (she’s usually against that) just so i can feel better
25. My mom keeps contacting me to make sure i dont die

[chéri @urang3I]

Or maybe im just evil lmao

[chéri @urang3I]

Being extremely mentally ill is very odd cause im actively seeing people around heavily hurt and affected by my “actions” and yet i cant seem to stop even tho seeing them this way only makes me 1000x worse

[chéri @urang3I]

The truth is no matter how many promises people make, no matter how much reassurance they give, no matter how hard they try i’ll always hear the same words “loving you is the hardest thing i had to do”

[chéri @urang3I]

I miss u 3d twt no one gets mw but u, please take me back