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Hello, it's time I told you about my life lately so you can understand why I stopped streaming and why I've been less active on social media (and why I might return one day, I hope ♥).
As many of my friends know, I've had a year that has been both complicated and beautiful at the same time, meeting lots of new people and going on my first trips.
In April 2024, I was struggling to survive in my home after breaking up with my ex, struggling to pay my new rent and the loan I had taken out for my PC while we were still together.
I was extremely lucky to have been supported during this period by people who helped me financially while I got back on my feet. Thank you to them once again, I owe them a lot.
Once the situation stabilized, I was able to enjoy meeting up with some friends on the other side of the ocean in America. Friends that I still cherish today, despite the fact that returning to France was a real burden for me, plunging me into what felt like depression, not feeling at home in my own country, far from those I loved.
This was followed by a long period of silence, during which I didn't give anyone any news, to the point that some of my friends became worried. I apologize again for that. I was a shadow of my former self, every spark of joy had left my body. I began to shut myself away in a solitary routine, sleeping during the day from exhaustion and staying awake at night.
To get out of this rut, I decided to move back in with my parents. (This was a huge mistake, hahaha.)
Seeing them fall back into their old habits with me, preventing me from living the way I wanted to, always breathing down my neck and taking away my privacy, plunged me into a new kind of routine, a routine of hope, while also being a race against time against my old demons.
However, I was lucky enough to travel to Mexico thanks to an incredible friend, and I had a wonderful time that revived me a little and gave me hope for the future.
Then came La Fauntastic (a French furry convention where I volunteer), where I was able to meet more incredible people who, even today, mean a lot to me. While the first Faun I attended allowed me to break the vicious cycle with my ex that was destroying both of us, this one reminded me that I was lucky to be part of a caring community surrounded by people in the same situation as me. I remembered that it's wonderful to have dreams and hope. But that sometimes you have to force yourself to take one step at a time to make them come true.
I discovered my passion for air travel and my desire to become a flight attendant, to the point that I started training to join the industry. I'm still looking for work, and I hope to see this happen in the coming year. I see my life in the clouds, serving travelers, haha.
But for now, my primary goal remains to move out of my parents' house again. And to do that, I needed to find a stable job.
After bouncing between jobs that kept me for a week as a replacement, and those where the workload was not compatible with my skin condition, it seems that I have finally found a job where I can thrive while continuing to live.
I am now a sales advisor in a French toy store, and after several months, I have finally been able to get a permanent contract. It hasn't been easy, but I can finally see a future taking shape.
I enjoy making parents and children smile, seeing people leave my store with the intention of coming back for my advice. I feel alive in my work again, just like when I first started streaming on Luiroi.
In a way, I'm happy to have found my place today, and to tell myself that it's only a matter of months before I find an apartment and leave the family home that brings back all my fears and anxieties from my youth. At the same time, I'm still scared of what life will throw my way.
Once I'm back home, I'll be free to create content on the internet, far from the judgment of those around me. Thank you to everyone who continues to follow me, to those who manage to join my impromptu streams when I find the time to do them once I'm home alone.
I'm happy to have my smile back. And I can't wait to share it with you again.
See you soon, in a calmer life. Luiroï 🍂🧡