＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊

Tonight your ghost will ask my ghost who put these bodies between us?
cw 120(bmi20.0)lw 93 (bmi 15.5)

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

Unpinning at 110lbs

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

Not new to edtwt but in desperate need of moots and activity

Intro!
>minor
>5’5
>ugw 85lbs
>any pronouns
>ana+afrid
>likes music, cats, and anything you want to talk about!
♡ or ↻to be moots!
Edtwt

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

every few months i’ll scroll back in this acc like im looking at a strangers words. i’ve spent so much of my developmental years trying to kill myself little by little without telling anyone. nobody gaf grow up. i can live and never tell a soul

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

i could go be a gym bro they can starve and do all sorts of shit and it’s healthy i could be free

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

thinkin about tracking calls again and locking in ed style to get stronger for a thing in my life but i also don’t wanna ruin that. i miss the control and there’s an easy way to get it back + get my actual goals but im so terrified of falling back into that ed. hell on earth.

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

this account is lowk the best diary of my mental health and struggles for the past genuinely 5 years. i need to archive this shit or something i don’t know

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

dude nothing will ever top eating disorder fanfic. give that man anorexia

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

i lowk wanna relapse sh again 💔 LOCK THE FUCK INNNNNNNNNN

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

IF I CAN THINK MYSELF INTO AN EPISODE I CAN THINK MYSELF OUT OF AN EPISODE

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

i don’t have an eating disorder or cut myself anymore (for now 🙏) so uhh i am taking a GENERATIONAL SHIT RIGHT NOW

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

officially working out every time i want to cut myself if ts is sticking around might as well get buff from it

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

heads i relapse this summer tails i live forever

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

this summer i will either make good art or relapse 💯

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

highkey i’m awful and want to die but school ends in two weeks k can’t do anything awful until at least then

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

idk if my natural is misery or joy anymore i swear i always fall back to misery i live on medicine and coping mechanisms but i always seem to fall back to it. i don’t think anyone can be happy all the time but i don’t think suicide is necessarily out of the question for me

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

this is straight up the opposite of what happened i actually have the focus and working memory to remember to eat regularly and i don’t have to starve to cope um i still hate myself but thank you adderall for stopping my relapse

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

so excited to get on add meds (weight loss ^-^) but i’m scared it’ll work a little too well and i’ll have to pick between admitting to my ed and recovering or functioning in daily life

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

@w1nged_p3arls I’m too good by ARTHUR

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

give me a number 1-139 and i’ll give u a song off my ed playlist (maybe a lyric too)

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

FUCK MY LIFE I HAD AN ED DREAM AGAIN

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

so excited to get on add meds (weight loss ^-^) but i’m scared it’ll work a little too well and i’ll have to pick between admitting to my ed and recovering or functioning in daily life

[＊*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚ VERN ˚*•̩̩͙✩•̩̩͙*˚＊ @Vernkcals]

I HAVE A NORMAL RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD