I don’t fully understand what I’m feeling, I know I’m sad or depressed, but I don’t know why exactly, I can’t pinpoint why I feel like I should cry, why is that I wait hours for her to be done hanging with who she’s hanging with and all I wanna do is enjoy her presence…
But when she’s finally here, I don’t allow myself to enjoy what little time I have with her, why am I the way I am, why do I feel like I don’t deserve good things in life, why do I feel like with these emotions, the people around me are better of with me dead or just gone…